Patience

They say that nothing protects the heart like patience. I agree… Totally agree. The more patience you have the more at peace you feel yourself. I particularly like to keep myself at peace. I don’t get my hopes up too high too fast nor do I serve my doubts for too long. I never let my fear come out of my mouth. I am not the strong one … not at all. I may be the weakest of all but I am better than many and that certainly doesn’t make me a hero. I had to realize that not everyone can handle everything. Rough times are always there and I can never put up with everyone around me. People make promises on a sunny day but not everyone understands that what it really means to stand by someone in storm. People not only leave your side but also forget you all the way because despite you being sincere and rightful they think you are not. They are so used to fake things and relations that they don’t want anything real anymore. They are just looking out for a version of themselves. But I … I am patient about all these things. The things that make me impatient are none of these. I am not an arrogant fool who because of her narcissistic, sociopathic behavior feel like everyone is trying to get beyond me or trying to drag me down. I am impatient because I want to stay away from people who lie or try to manipulate me. I cannot allow someone to displease me or hurt me. I am not patient anymore with hypocrites, dishonest and cynical people. If people don’t like me or love me they should stay back. If they cannot say whatever they are saying by heart they should not say it as I hate exaggeration and flattering. I hate being in relations where there is no truth or loyalty. Such people don’t deserve my patience or my love and I am patient with it.