Eclipse

I am a girl I cry often Not because my heart is fragile Not because my feelings get hurt very easily Not because my relations are not enough for me But because I am tired Tired of holding on for too long Tired of trying for a thousand times and still fail Tired of keeping it all in I have kept my feelings to myself for so long That they occupied all the space in my heart and mind Now I can't hold on I can't tell myself that everything is going to be alright My heart doesn't accept these justifications anymore Nor do my brain feeds itself with lies of better tommorow I know that everything is going to be the same or worst maybe And it makes me cry Don't I deserve better Maybe no That makes me cry as well Every single time when I feel degraded I cry Every time I feel alone I cry Every day when I feel hopeless I cry Being a girl is difficult Being a human is worse There is no euphoria in living There is depression and despair And those who cry ...

A couple of months ago he (my best friend) advised me to start writing properly. As not for fun but I should make it a habit of mine to write if not every day but must once a week. So, I thought for weeks and finally I started this blog. Where I share with you the occasional writer in me. Everything was fine I wrote six to seven posts fairly fast and then there was a break. This break was not because I was very busy with my studies or life, no, it was because I am very impatient. I never do justice with whatsoever I do. I leave things halfway because I get bored. Every once in a while I get inspired by a better idea than the one I am working on and boom … I leave my current work and start a new one. I do this with books that I read, paintings, sketches, doodles, movies that I watch, crafts and writing too. One of my earlier blog post was about patience. In that post I talked about patience and about myself. I told in that post that I am patient in my relationships and in...